Does that title sound familiar? That was the name of my blog many moons ago.
Even though I am not writing that blog anymore, I am still hiding out in my broom closet. I have ventured out from time to time. I have told more people about my beliefs but I am still very careful on who I tell. There are very few people that know. The one's who know are people that I felt I could trust and don't judge me. As a matter of fact, one of my best friends and I have some amazing conversations about my beliefs.
Being in the broom closet is not as easy as it looks. I don't like lying to people. So when the women in my office are discussing their churches and their beliefs system, I just smile. Many times, I attempt to change the subject or I remind them that it is not their place to judge.
If you knew me, you would know that I am an outspoken person. I normally speak my mind. But this is one subject I feel is better for me to just keep my mouth shut. My children are very young and don't understand the path I have chosen for myself. I don't want them to feel the need to defend me to the hypocrites in my town. Or worry that they may lose friends because of my beliefs. After all, I am a "satan worshipper". I know first hand how that feels. When I was a child, a parent didn't like that my father drank so they wouldn't let their daughter play with me. I know it isn't the same situation but close enough. I will explain to my children my beliefs when I feel they are old enough to understand it a little better.
Another thing about being in the broom closet is that I have to hide my books and I can't have the alter I want. The alter has to look more like a table with miscellaneous things on it. And my books are all tucked away in my closet on a shelf.
I don't know if I will ever completely leave my broom closet. I guess time will tell.
Have a blessed day!
Ana
