Deep Inside My Broom Closet

Does that title sound familiar?  That was the name of my blog many moons ago. 

Even though I am not writing that blog anymore, I am still hiding out in my broom closet.  I have ventured out from time to time.  I have told more people about my beliefs but I am still very careful on who I tell.  There are very few people that know.  The one's who know are people that I felt I could trust and don't judge me. As a matter of fact, one of my best friends and I have some amazing conversations about my beliefs.

Being in the broom closet is not as easy as it looks.  I don't like lying to people. So when the women in my office are discussing their churches and their beliefs system, I just smile.  Many times, I attempt to change the subject or I remind them that it is not their place to judge.     

If you knew me, you would know that I am an outspoken person. I normally speak my mind.  But this is one subject I feel is better for me to just keep my mouth shut.  My children are very young and don't understand the path I have chosen for myself.   I don't want them to feel the need to defend me to the hypocrites in my town.  Or worry that they may lose friends because of my beliefs.  After all, I am a "satan worshipper".  I know first hand how that feels.  When I was a child, a parent didn't like that my father drank so they wouldn't let their daughter play with me.   I know it isn't the same situation but close enough.  I will explain to my children my beliefs when I feel they are old enough to understand it a little better.

Another thing about being in the broom closet is that I have to hide my books and I can't have the alter I want.  The alter has to look more like a table with miscellaneous things on it.  And my books are all tucked away in my closet on a shelf.  

I don't know if I will ever completely leave my broom closet.  I guess time will tell.

Have a blessed day!

Ana